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Thoughts and Reflections of a survivor on Yom Hashoha, The Holocaust Day
I was
in the garden feeding our cat called ginger when the sirens
went off, officially announcing the day of the Shoa. The
shrill, piercing sound made ginger jump in the air and arch
its back. Then she came scuttling down to hide between my
legs, while I stood at attention.
It was
ten in the morning and the sirens were sounding all over
Israel, from Metula in the North, to Eilat in the South.
Israelis wherever they are, stop and stand at attention
for several minutes in honour of the six million Holocaust
victims. For two minutes the whole country stops in its
tracks. For us Holocaust survivors, this is of great emotional
significance. We know that we are in the only country in
the world that honours our perished families and friends
in such a dignified manner. We, the Holocaust survivors,
our children and grand children can hold up our heads and
say, yes, this our home and no one will ever get us out
of here, no matter what.
April
is the most beautiful time of the year in Israel, just before
the harsh summer heat invades the country. The orange groves
are in bloom, and the sweet delicate bouquet of orange
blossoms permeates the country side. Passover, is
also behind us and soon we will celebrate Israel’s 54th
Independence day. Yet, today is the Holocaust day, the saddest
day of the year for us survivors. Memories of the horrors
I saw in my childhood surface in my mind and heart. Sadness
is mixed with certain rage and resentment. Why did the world
allow it to happen and did nothing, keeps going through
my mind. If only Israel had existed ten years earlier, when
Hitler was still willing to let the Jews go, there wouldn’t
have been a Holocaust and all that is near and dear to me
would have survived. My mother and brother, my uncles and
aunts, cousins, friends, teachers, rabbis, actors, writers
and their descendants would all be alive today. But Israel
did not exist, and they all perished in the flames of the
Holocaust, leaving a painful void in our hearts and souls.
Since
we live near the sea, on every Holocaust day I go down to
the beach, to sense, to smell and feel. To smell the sea,
feel the sun on my body, and sense the presence of perhaps
something good, anything that would keep me from thinking,
anything that would keep me from remembering. The sea always
had that calming effect on me. Its vastness, as it stretches
from horizon to horizon. The acrid smell of salt and kelp.
The gentle murmur of the waves as they wash ashore
on the sandy beach. And how it changes colour gradually
from dark blue, to turquoise green. One can’t help singing
hosannas to G-d’s marvellous creation. And yet, I think
of his supreme accomplishment, the creation of man: Cruel,
vengeful, destructive and in many ways stupid, despite his
intelligence. We can’t help but observe the shape mankind
is in and the shape of this beautiful planet that is gradually
sinking in the muck created by ourselves.
Perhaps
I am being too harsh on ourselves. Perhaps it is due to
the memories I experienced as a child, on this Holocaust
day. Perhaps it isn’t really our fault.
Perhaps
these bitter thoughts are also influenced by the death and
destruction that surrounds us today. Suicide bombers, attacking
our civilian population, as a strategic weapon hatched in
the sick minds of Arafat and his Iranian, Iraqi, and Syrian
backers. Our subsequent attacks on the Palestinian towns
and villages raining down more death and destruction on
them. Soon the bombers will be on their way to our towns
again and we back to theirs. No end to the cycle of violence.
And my God, it could have been so different.. Just imagine
if they, the Arabs, had accepted the United Nations decision
in 1947, for the creation of two states living in peace
side by side; Israel and Palestine, instead of trying to
destroys us, war after war, after war. Imagine what the
Middle East would have been like today. To start with,
we wouldn’t have fought five major wars with hundreds of
thousands of dead and wounded and continuos destruction
of the area. There wouldn’t have been three million Palestinian
refugees with all their misery, condemned to rot in camps.
We could
have placed our know how for the whole regions advantage,
and the Middle East would have been today an area of prosperity
and peace. To support this claim, all one has to do is to
observe the achievements of tiny Israel in the last fifty
years, even while it had to spend billions of dollars
to defend itself. From a pauper state in 1948, with millions
of penniless refugees flooding the country, it built its
industry, agriculture, made great medical discoveries, built
a high tech industry that is only second to the famous Silicon
Valley, built a formidable army, to name but a few
of the achievements. Then observe what had happened
to our Arab neighbours since 1948, and the conclusion is
obvious. They have regressed year by year and the only thing
they have produced is a new generation of frustrated fanatics,
who hate the West, because they are envious of its achievements
and hate its culture, because it is repulsive to them. And
let us not make any mistakes, they don’t hate America and
the West because it supports Israel; on the contrary, they
hate Israel because they see it as a bastion of the West
in their midst. We had so much to offer them, instead they
chose to fight us, and still do. It is a great pity. They
never seem to learn. We are here to stay and they might
as well make peace with that idea instead of forever fighting
it. After all it is just a matter of concept. We are Israel
and they are Ishmail, and we are supposed to be cousins.
Solly
Ganor
Herzelia, Israel
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